Aloha H Joe.
I feel the same way that you do. Dave is a friend of our, family that we’ve chosen with each other and when someone hurts we feel it too. I just don’t want him to be along, but that is not my choice but of Father who makes that choice when it’s our time. We just need to keep supporting him, love him and show him that he is loved. Prayers for him are still going up my friend and I love you too.??♥️

Aloha DHog.
Mahalo for your Aloha towards Dave. Your compassion shows how loving and understanding you are. I’m heartbroken for him. He is in my prayers as are you my friend. Love you.????

Thanks HonoluluJoe all I can do is play each day as they come along and see how long I can last. But thanks for the prayers and thoughts it’s appreciated!
I have lasted a lot longer than they all thought so I suppose I have been lucky in my own way. But out living all of your family on both-sides had it’s own drawbacks as well so kind of looking forward to the end.

Aloha CT_Versatile. I have read your response to DHog and understand. I’m praying for you and sending you Aloha nūnui.
E Mālama Pono A Ke Akua Pū. ????

Your too kind Sir….****bowing****

*bowing*

I appreciate your kind words and the sentiments are mutual totally. .Thank you, DH

Good Afternoon, EA… Thanks for your words of condolences. I had many losses this past year but that one hit me the hardest. He had lived 26 years without living a life that involved a way to communicate with anyone until I came along. We got pretty close to him. I could read his eye blinks and for each time we almost lost him, I stayed at the hospital with him everyday. Yes time heal all pains but he is with me always. Thanks for you kind words glad I got a friend like you. Dark

Good Afternoon, DH…Just wanted to pass on my condolences on your loss. We live and live and something likes this and we have to learn to appreciate life and love more…Sincerely, Wishes and Blessings the pain goes away with all the memories and time…

I hope so also, we have talk about him many times. Hope me gets a good home.

Yes I am one who learned the hard way with my most recent ex that I lost too much of my time and own self to his wants and needs. Put myself on the back burner because I felt being alone was worse. But you can’t turn back or change time.

So sorry that is how it happened with your friend sudden things like that are hard to stomach there is no preparation to handle the onslaught of emotions. But his suffering is done ours go on until our own end.

I only worry for Mr. Chad my Husky I hope he is taken care of once I’m gone. As far as I am concerned he is my son and last living family member.

We live our lives the way we chose, yet we often live it the way we thing others want us to live it before we realized what we wanted, by then we often regret the time lost. This is only a new transcendence to another elevation where things are better that this life was.
My friend was hurt in a car accident which left him unable to speak, move or feed himself, yet he smiled about everything, laughed even when he was sick and ask his Father said, smile brightest when I walked in the room. He waits for me I know as your love ones are waiting for you. I will be sad, but I know I will see you again. Jimmy

I think we all keep things inside Jimmy and don’t often share or talk about it for many reasons. Some are private with their lives and tend to keep their own pain to themselves which comes in many forms.

It’s not easy to share with strangers and you never know what their reactions will be either which is also just as scary at times. But thanks for sharing with me your pain and what you went through with your friend!

I hope when I am gone I get to meet Molly and Franky again my first dog’s. As much as I love and care about Mr. Chad, my Siberian I have now, your first dog’s are hard to forget. But I know if there is a Heaven and or Hell I’ve earned the right to be sent to either or both but I hope when it happens I don’t care either way I don’t want my last thoughts to be of something silly like that.

It would be nice to see Dave again too my first real love and relationship that I never stopped missing even 20 years later.

And thanks yes you have been the same Jimmy and why I also connected to you as far as personality and how we address things we see and read as well as comment on.

Dave

CT_ I keep a lot of things deep inside and couldn’t share this with anyone until now.
I feel that you have lived an amazing life the one that was chosen for you. You have been an amazing friend for me, so nice and positive as that a getting very rare these days.
I feel, and I know that where you will go when you leave this behind will be amazing, loving and joyful with the angels leading you in, with that I believe we will still communicate, you will not be forgotten, your journey just broadening. We will finally meet one day and that new life that you get to see before me will be amazing my friend. Jimmy

Very sorry to hear about the loss of your friend that you went through Dark! I’m glad he had someone like you with him to the end very sweet of you to do that no matter how difficult it was to watch!
Strange that it was last September I learned about my Tumor and Cancer issue as well.
My heart problem isn’t new it started many years ago it’s just reached a critical point now is all.

But yes I have avoided the thoughts of things ending and kind of a reality check when your forced to face it.

Thanks for sharing, your thoughts and wishes and kind words Dark it is appreciated!

Dave

Oh man, I’m so sorry to hear that, back in September I lost a friend I was caring for the same way. He only communicate with his eyes, and I was the only one who could u understand what the blinks meant so I was with him everyday. He die in his sleep.
I’m so bless to know you and that you shared this with me. You have truly been a miracle to me since the first time that we’ve communicated together.
We always think that we will live forever or never think about dying until something like what you’re going through happens, then reality sets in and throws us a curve.
My heart is with you,and for as long as you can keep in touch and in your silence, I will know. Love you CT_. Dark

I was in the hospital this weekend got out on Tuesday. I had a major incident with my heart.

Before I was discharged 3 doctors came in to have a long talk with me that’s when I knew I was in trouble. Basically the last thing they said to me is if you have a bucket list it is time to do what ever I can on it as soon as possible.

My heart is at 20% output and every time I go to sleep there is a chance I may never wake up again. And last year they had found an inoperable cancerous brain tumor which makes me ineligible for a heart transplant and my heart is too tired to take my getting radiation and chemo therapy. So the end is nearer than I care to think about.

Thanks Aloha read above message to dark it explains it all.

Aloha H Joe.
I do too. I hope his spirit is alright, just want him to know that whatever it is, we love and care about him, he is important to us and is much loved.

Aloha DHog.
I hope CT is okay. His post is making me feel uneasy.